Reflection

I can’t find the exact words to start this post. I am not quite sure if I should be posting this as it’s rather personal. Maybe I should but no details provided.

It has been a roller-coaster week for our family. One of our loved ones is sick.....very sick and is still hospitalised. But the great news is condition is stablised and we are hopeful for a better recovery ahead. It’s not going to be easy for the patient to recover. The journey ahead is tough but I hope we will be strong and press on for each other.

 Patients come and go. I see new faces in the ward almost every time I visit. So today, we made a visit to the hospital. There was this unconscious patient laying opposite us. There were alot of visitors for that patient. That patient was just pushed in from another place. I overheard the doc said, “Please get all your family members to come and visit.”

I was stunned in my heart. We all knew what this sentence means. You don’t rally your whole family just to make a regular visit. I can’t help but to feel the sense of pain for that patient and family. I looked my loved one and am so grateful and thankful that recovery is right ahead for us.

You see, I am a very emotional creature. I teared when I watched sad movies, read a sad book or watched a sad news. I empathise. 

I felt myself shaking a little and soon, tears were rolling in my eyes. I held back my tears because I do not want to look ridiculous crying there. I saw the family members busily contacting the others to come and make the last visit. Some broke down and some started to pray for the patient. The chanting sounded melancholic.

Before we left, the ward was filled with his relatives. There were a lot of people that I can’t believe my eyes. In a way, I am envy of their togetherness and how the family show love and care for each other. And the docs and nurses were doing an emergency rescue. Maybe the patient’s condition took a turn for the worse. 

This visit definitely sets me thinking.

Life is just so fragile and unpredictable. It just made me reflected on the way I lead my life. I am not very good with words and can’t the phrases to describe how I really feel. But most importantly, I felt to love my family is to be responsible for my own health too. And of course, to be and live in the NOW.